A Variety of Thoughts About Everything

 After my last blog post my Mum sent me a text. In it was some personal stuff talking about what I had written. And included was the following: (The) Dynamics of Survival 1. Survival as self 2. Survival through reproduction; sex, family  3. Survival through groups, society, community 4. Survival through species (mankind) 5. Survival through all life forms 6. Survival through the physical universe: matter, energy, space, time  7. Survival through spirit, soul 8. Survival through creation, god I found this interesting so that night I called her and we had a 55 minute conversation about this, It was mostly trying to understand what each one of those meant to each of us. It was a lot of fun. So now I am going to talk about each one of these. I am not going to strictly adhere to what my Mum and I talked about. In fact I am going to widely diverge from the conversation that we had. I have done some reflecting since then and want to write about that. So hang on folks. This could be fun. Or no

 In my youth I ran away. I ran away from everything and everyone. I ran inside my mind and began using my Imagination like a drug. Later on I began to use drugs to fuel my imagination as imagination by itself was no longer sufficient. Now why did I run away? I can "hear" you asking that question. So let me answer. I ran away because I was 'fraid. At 5 and a half years old I looked at the world around me and it frightened me. I did not realize I was afraid, yet I was. And I said, on a deep emotional level not involving language at all "F**k this. I'm out". and ran away inside my mind. And for many years I kept running. And after a while my fear transformed. It became anger. And also hate. And I became angry about and hated many different people, places, and situations. And my excuse was because they "Let me down" in some fashion or another. Mostly though, I was angry at and hated myself. I blamed the entire world and everything and everyone in it fo

fanatic [ f uh - nat -ik ] noun 1 .    a person with an extreme and uncritical enthusiasm or zeal, as in religion or politics. adjective fanatical . fanatical [ f uh - nat -i-k uh l ] adjective motivated or characterized by an extreme, uncritical enthusiasm or zeal, as in religion or politics. fanaticism [ f uh - nat - uh -sahyz- uh m ] noun fanatical character, spirit, or conduct. All of the above are taken from dictionary.com =========================================================================  There is this TV show that was aired many moons ago that I adore. A Great Show in my opinion. I have not watched it in several years. A few weeks ago I saw that it was streaming on a free streaming service that I have access to. So I started watching it again, 1 episode a day. 10 days in I ran into this episode that I had forgotten about. Now this show deals with a LOT of difficult subjects, and it has dealt with different types of Fanaticism throughout it's run in different ways. Thi