A Variety of Thoughts About Everything

 I have written about forgiveness before. And now I am writing again. I find that I need to keep reminding myself about it. Because, as soon as I think I have done it I find I need to do it again. It is a Learning and Re-Learning that is badly needed, by me, I find. And you all get some more of my blatherings because of it 😎 I find that as I get further on in life, AKA older, that my understanding of things gets both deeper and more rigid. I need to shake it out every once in a while in order to shake out the rigidity. Thus, more of my blatherings. And why is Forgiveness such a big topic for me? Those of you who have been reading my stuff can answer that. And I am going to answer it anyway because why not. It used to be because there were people in my life that I needed to forgive. Not for them, not to let them "Off the Hook", not to Absolve them of Responsibility, not to re-establish a relationship with them, not to "Forgive and Forget", not for any of the general

 For many years I have been aware that I have mental health issues to deal with. Addiction being the biggest and most obvious one. And add into that mix on and off Depression and PTSD and you get a pretty good mix of stuff that goes on in my daily life. It can be "Interesting" 🙄 As time has gone by I have discovered that I am not anywhere close to alone with this. In the Recovery world that I live in it is very common for people to have a Sponsor and a Therapist. And as I get further and further integrated into the world that I ran away from for so long I am finding that mental health issues are also very common here as well. Although not anywhere near as well addressed. Many people who do not have some version of personal development do not recognize or acknowledge their mental health issues. The Stigma towards Mental Health in our Society is still very Negative and very Strong. And yet, we still continue to create a society that people feel they need to escape from. And le

 Just recently I had something happen that has forced me to take a look at one of the relationships that I have in my life. It is neither a good or bad thing. It is just something that happened that has opened my eyes to something that I do not want to see in this relationship. And not wanting to see something. I don't know about you, I do know about me. Not seeing what I do not want to see is a life long pattern for me. Or, what is even worse. Magical vision. Seeing it exactly the way that I want it to be despite the mountain of evidence, which I, of course, cannot see, sayin that this ain't so. And this began at a really young. Something happened when I was three years eight months old that set this pattern f behavior in place. And many other things throughout my childhood reinforced this pattern of behavior. And the pattern was once you were in my world you were not allowed to leave. Ever. Not for any reason at all. Even when we were both miserable and hateful. It did not ma

 Growing up I was exposed to a lot of different styles of music. I have listed them in a previous post so if you wanna know then go look 😎 And for many years in my teenage hood and "Adulthood" I was strictly Loud Rock and Roll. Especially the angry and rebellious type. Later on life, once I started getting my life together, my musical taste began to evolve. And I began to enjoy many different styles. And, as always, this was all set up by individual songs, songs that told me a story, and it no longer had to be a dark story. I fact a lot of the stories began to be much lighter. Not all of them however. One of those songs that tell a story that I adore is by The Verve and is called Bittersweet Symphony. And to me this tells the story of modern life. There are two versions that I Love. One is the Verve doing the song at the Glastonbury Festival in 2008. That can be found HERE . And the other is done by an organization called The Rockin' 1,000 . And I love this one because i

 We have all heard the saying "Pride goeth before the fall". I have said it a few times, mostly at others. And other people have said it, sometimes about me. Shocking all those who know me I am sure 😈 And there is another very old saying that applies, "Whom the Gods would destroy, first they make proud". And I am pretty sure that most of you have heard this one also. Although it is not as popular as the first one. So now let us define what we are talking about here.  First, Dictionary.com definition of Proud: adjective, proud·er,   proud·est. feeling pleasure or satisfaction over something regarded as highly honorable or creditable to oneself (often followed by of,  an infinitive, or a clause). having, proceeding from, or showing a high opinion of one's own dignity, importance, or superiority. having or showing self-respect or self-esteem. highly gratifying to the feelings or self-esteem: It was a proud day for him when his son entered college. highly honorable